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HOW DO YOU SOLVE YOUR OWN MURDER? An edge-of-your-seat psychological mystery novel from a thrilling new writer.

RATED 5* BY REAL READERS:
'UNIQUE'
'THRILLING...FULL OF TENSION'
'BEAUTIFUL, HEART-WRENCHING'

HOW DO YOU SOLVE YOUR OWN MURDER?

Everyone believes Alex is in a coma, unlikely to ever wake up. As his family debate withdrawing life support, and his friends talk about how his girlfriend Bea needs to move on, he can only listen.

But Alex soon begins to suspect that the accident that put him here wasn’t really an accident. Even worse, the perpetrator is still out there and Alex is not the only one in danger.

As he goes over a series of clues from his past, Alex must use his remaining senses to solve the mystery of who tried to kill him, and try to protect those he loves, before they decide to let him go.

A stunning edge-of-your-seat debut novel with an unforgettable narrator.
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'This is a debut to be reckoned with.' Guardian

Reviews

This is a debut to be reckoned with.

Barry Forshaw, Guardian

The author conveys a real sense of the true horror of being locked inside a body that won’t move with a brain that still works. And she persuades us to stay with the story to its strangely exhilarating conclusion.

Christina Appleyard, Daily Mail

The author conveys a real sense of the true horror of being locked inside a body that won’t move with a brain that still works. And she persuades us to stay with the story to its strangely exhilarating conclusion.

Christina Appleyard, Daily Mail

If I Die Before I Wake is a captivating thriller by an exciting new voice. I read it in two days because I had to know who did it! Koch keeps you guessing until the very end.

Mary Lynn Bracht, author of White Chrysanthemum

I loved If I Die Before I Wake. I was completely gripped - a sign of a true story-teller. It's utterly compelling and has an ending that will rip the heart out of you.

Jo Spain, author of The Confession

A great premise and really beautifully written, with a very moving ending.

Cara Hunter, author of Close to Home

A crucial decision in fiction writing is point of view, and Koch, having found a striking angle, makes compelling use of it.

Mark Lawson, The Catholic Herald

Gripping from the outset and beautifully told, If I Die Before I Wake sucks you in and stays with you long after the final page

Jo Jakeman, author of Sticks and Stones

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Formats & editions

  • Trade Paperback

    9781911215486

    January 2, 2018

    Harvill Secker

    320 pages

    RRP $37.00

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  • Paperback

    9781784705718

    February 19, 2019

    Vintage

    320 pages

    RRP $26.00

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Extract

1

‘What’s your intro, then?’

That’s what my news editor used to ask me as soon as I walked into the office. He’d say it without turning his gleaming bald head away from the computer screen. His unnervingly delicate fingers would be spidering across his keyboard, his bottom lip sticking out and wobbling as he mouthed the words he typed. I’d be expected to rattle out my answer straight away. The top line of the story. What you’d say to your friends at the pub to catch their attention. The most important part to tell the reader, so that if they stopped there, at least they would know the gist.

As a cub reporter I stammered out a few answers, staring down at the brown carpet tiles, sweating in my suit and tie, hoping for someone to step in and tell me how I should start. Before Bill could bark at me, I might try and beat him to it and ask, ‘What do you want me to go in on?’ It worked a few times but then he got irritated. He’d drag his eyes from the monitor, wheel his office chair out from under his desk with a push of his feet, place his hands gently on his medicine-ball stomach, and say, ‘I don’t know, Alexander. You tell me. You need me to hold your hand, sweetheart?’

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