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  • Published: 24 October 2016
  • ISBN: 9781784162337
  • Imprint: Black Swan
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 400

I Want To Live

The Diary of a Young Girl in Stalin's Russia



The Soviet Russian DIARY OF ANNE FRANK.

Does that boy like me? Why are my sisters so mean? Does anyone think I'm pretty? Will my father be arrested? These were the everyday concerns of thirteen-year-old Moscow schoolgirl Nina Lugovskaya, who began to write a diary in 1932. Her indignant outbursts against the brutal raids and purges of Stalin's terror appear alongside the more typical adolescent worries about girlfriends, boys, parties and homework. For five years Nina scribbled down her most intimate thoughts and dreams, including her ambition one day to become a writer. Then in 1937 the NKVD, Stalin's secret police, ransacked Nina's home and discovered her diary. Nina's criticism of the regime provided sufficient evidence for the charge of treason, and she, her mother and two sisters were sentenced to five years' hard labour in the Gulag, followed by seven years' exile in Siberia. Recently Nina's diary was discovered in the KGB archives, complete with the original passages underlined by the secret police. Like Anne Frank's diary, this journal poignantly reveals life at a time of political upheaval, betrayal and repression through the eyes of an innocent.

  • Published: 24 October 2016
  • ISBN: 9781784162337
  • Imprint: Black Swan
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 400

About the author

Nina Lugovskaya

Nina Lugovskaya was born in Moscow on 13th December 1918 into a family of first generation intellectuals. She survived her imprisonment and became a painter, but she never wrote again. She died in 1993, just after the end of the USSR.

Praise for I Want To Live

Could do for the Russian experience of Stalin's terror what Anne Frank's The Diary of a Young Girl did for worldwide understanding of the Holocaust.

Lesley Chamberlain, Financial Times

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