- Published: 2 July 2024
- ISBN: 9781776959006
- Imprint: Penguin Random House New Zealand Audio
- Format: Audio Download
- Narrator: Antonia Robinson
- RRP: $24.00
I Am Not Esther
- Published: 2 July 2024
- ISBN: 9781776959006
- Imprint: Penguin Random House New Zealand Audio
- Format: Audio Download
- Narrator: Antonia Robinson
- RRP: $24.00
Wellington's Beale is one of the most consistently accomplished and versatile writers for teenagers in the country
New Zealand Listener
a strong storyteller
Trevor Agnew, The Press
[Fleur Beale is] consistently engaging
Frances Grant, Weekend Herald [Canvas]
Sort of a Handmaid's Tale for the junior high set, New Zealander Beale's engrossing novel peers into the restricted world of the Children of the Faith, a rigidly traditional (and fictional) Christian sect. Resourceful Kirby has never known any family aside from her impractical mother, Ellen. When Ellen abruptly makes plans to fulfill her lifelong dream of working with refugees in Africa, she sends Kirby to her long-estranged brother, the strict and pious Caleb, and his wife and children. Renamed Esther ("The women of our faith all have biblical names. As do the men," explains soberly clad Aunt Naomi), Kirby chafes at the restrictions forced on her by her newfound kin: they dictate her style of dress and hair, forbid slang and even contractions, and resolutely discourage any ambitions aside from an early marriage and plenty of children. Angry and confused though she is, Kirby becomes attached to her newfound cousins, in particular the vulnerable five-year-old Maggie (Magdalene) and teenage Daniel, who is himself struggling to reconcile his interest in becoming a doctor with the community's mores. Though several plot twists seem to exist mostly to serve the novel's decidedly anti-fundamentalist stance (only dissenter Kirby, for example, has the courage to defy her uncle and get her ailing pregnant aunt the help she needs), this tale still has more than enough power to chill.
US Publishers Weekly
This is a disturbing tale about a girl put into a completely new environment and how she deals with it. Beale's writing is excellent...I had a difficult time putting this one down.
Kathy Brummond, BookReview.com
Kirby, 14, comes home from school to find her usually good-natured "dizzy flake" of a mom crying. The mystery deepens when her mother announces her intention to leave New Zealand almost immediately to work as a nurse in Africa, and ships the teen off to live with an uncle she's never met. Caleb and his family are members of a sect called the Fellowship of the Children of the Faith, and their house has no mirrors, no TV, no radio, no newspapers, and virtually nothing to read but the Bible. Her uncle renames her "Esther" and though she is by turns feisty and irreverent, she quickly learns that everyone suffers when she breaks the rules because discipline consists mostly of grueling prayer sessions that all family members are required to attend. Beginning to find her place among the six siblings, Kirby cannot understand why no one will talk about another sister, Miriam, who died just four weeks earlier. She enjoys increasingly unguarded conversations with her cousin Daniel, who secretly wishes to continue his education and become a doctor, but is horrified by the rigidity and brutality of this male-dominated fundamentalist society. The author builds tension well, introducing layers of conflict, revealing elements of the plot realistically and plausibly. The climax shocks and the resolution feels right. While understanding the comfort and peace that some believers feel, in the end it is clear to Kirby that such strict beliefs limit people, dictating too much of what can't be done instead of allowing personal initiative and creativity to flourish.
US School Library Journal
an author who is in touch with the modern young market
Northern Advocate
Fleur Beale is a great author, as if you yourself were experiencing the life changing adventure.
Evelyn Barber, aged 13, Hookedonbooks.org.nz
Storylines Gaelyn Gordon Award for a much-loved book
Awarded • 2009 • Winner, Storylines Gaelyn Gordon Award