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  • Published: 23 May 2013
  • ISBN: 9781448147724
  • Imprint: Ebury Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 352

If Only I Had Told




The truth about Orkney’s satanic ritualistic sex abuse, from a girl at the centre of the controversy

‘The satanic sex ring takes place around a quarry, near your friend’s house. As well as your family there are four others, so far that we know of, involved.’
When her dad was arrested and imprisoned for violently abusing his 15 children, Esther thought her life could begin at last.
She couldn't have been more wrong. Another man was ready to take advantage of this vulnerable girl. Social services stepped in again, but this time they made things much, much worse . . .
If Only I Had Told is Esther’s personal and very brave memoir that tells the truth about Orkney’s 1991 satanic sex scandal. It is a shocking account of how two evil men and a flawed system let down not just a young girl but a whole community.

  • Pub date: 23 May 2013
  • ISBN: 9781448147724
  • Imprint: Ebury Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 352

About the Author

Esther W.

Esther W. spent much of her childhood growing up on South Ronaldsay in Orkney, where her father was convicted of physical and sexual abuse. Today, Esther has a BA in Design and lives in the West Midlands. Her website and blog is survivormum.com, where she charts the day to day demands of being a mother to two wonderful and very active boys while breaking the chains of her past.


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