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  • Published: 29 May 2025
  • ISBN: 9781529946635
  • Imprint: Vintage Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 320

Let Me Go Mad in My Own Way





A multi-generational family story of the west of Ireland and its women and a love story of second chances from the Booker-longlisted author of How to Build a Boat

'A superb, multi-generational story told in stunning, poetic prose. Elaine Feeney is one of Irish literature's most gifted and persuasive storytellers.' SINÉAD GLEESON

Claire O’Connor’s life has been on hold since she broke up with Tom Morton and moved from cosmopolitan London back home to the rugged West of Ireland to care for her dying father. But snatches of her old life are sure to follow her, when Tom unexpectedly moves nearby for work. As Claire is thrown back into a love she thought she’d left behind, she questions if Tom has come for her or for himself.

Living in her childhood home brings its own challenges. While Claire tries to maintain a normal life – obsessing over the internet, going to work and minding her own business – Tom’s return stirs up haunting memories trapped within the walls of the old family house.

Let Me Go Mad in My Own Way is a story of love and resilience, rich with history and drama, and the legacies of violence and redemption. As the secrets of the past are revealed, Claire must confront whether she can escape her history to make her own future – and whether finding herself means facing herself too.

  • Published: 29 May 2025
  • ISBN: 9781529946635
  • Imprint: Vintage Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 320

About the author

Elaine Feeney

Elaine Feeney is a writer from the west of Ireland. Her 2020 debut novel, As You Were, was shortlisted for the Rathbones Folio Prize and the Irish Novel of the Year Award, and won the Kate O'Brien Award, the McKitterick Prize, and the Dalkey Festival Emerging Writer Award. Feeney has published three collections of poetry including The Radio Was Gospel and Rise, and her short story Sojourn was included in The Art of The Glimpse: 100 Irish Short Stories, edited by Sinéad Gleeson. Feeney lectures at the National University of Ireland, Galway.

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Praise for Let Me Go Mad in My Own Way

One of the finest writers of her generation ... Feeney will break your heart with her characters but she will also lovingly put it back together again.

Edel Coffey

Conveyed with lyricism and longing.

Observer, *Books to Look Out For 2025*

One of Irish literature's most gifted and persuasive storytellers.

Sinéad Gleeson

A startling and original novel loaded with insight on the long reach of traumas both personal and political.

Sarah Gilmartin

This is a clear-eyed and deep-hearted calibration of accumulating trauma, which Feeney skillfully conveys the scope and heft of while considering what it might take to halt it in its devastating tracks. She has the novelist's instinct of wanting to get to the bottom of painful situations, yet she is also a first-class poet who knows that painful situations are often fathomless and ineffable. What we get then is a driven, tenacious, and probing narrative, made up of deeply expressive sentences that bristle and ache. Curious, sensitive, and unfeignedly visceral, Let Me Go Mad in My Own Way packs an intellectual and emotional punch as it asks that most difficult of questions – What now?

Claire-Louise Bennett

This book touched my soul ... A perfect depiction of the complicated relationships we have with ourselves and our histories.

Katriona O'Sullivan

Astonishing ... A book about how women hold power and space wand how the truths passed down by women from generation to generation create a shadow history that stands as a corrective to received narratives.

Jessica Traynor

Lulls the reader with its lyrical beauty, then slowly devastates with its raw passion and pain ... Shocking, intelligent and full of humanity, this is a story for our times.

Mary Costello

A beautiful digressive trip through modern life, and a far-wider-reaching, wildly ambitious vision of what it means to be Irish and a person right now.

Roisin Kiberd

Feeney's warmth, compassion and bravery on the page... Her writing is so natural...that it seems at times miraculous.

Lisa McInerney

An uncanny understanding of the workings of the human heart. I loved this book.

Louise Kennedy

Hugely powerful ...likely one of the most original you'll read this year

Daily Mail

Feeney’s astute lyricism makes for a marvellously engaging story

Mail on Sunday

A very strong novel and I was gripped by it throughout

Alex Clark, RTE Radio

Expertly balances light and darkness, in a story that grips and engages... Sizzling, electric ... charged with humour and anger, reinvigorating and unexpected ...I loved it so

Jenny Mustard

I absolutely loved this novel - a story of lost love and longing that tears open to reveal a whole history of violence, told with the effortless intelligence and extraordinary compassion.

Rosie Price, author of THE ORANGE ROOM

An ambitious, thoughtful, nicely layered book

Irish Times

An emotionally layered novel about memory, grief and resilience

Image Magazine

Beautifully written ... Devastating, true and timely

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