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  • Published: 2 January 2018
  • ISBN: 9780143770930
  • Imprint: Penguin
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 320
  • RRP: $22.00

Catch Me When You Fall




Will Alex win the battle for life?

A moving novel about learning to find happiness in the face of uncertainty and discovering a love that transcends the boundary between life and death.

Seventeen-year-old Alex Byrd is about to have the worst day of her life, and the best. A routine blood test that will reveal her leukaemia has returned, but she also meets Jamie Orange.

Some people believe in love at first sight, and some don’t.
I believe in love in four days.
I believe in falling.
Both teenagers have big dreams, but also big obstacles to overcome.

‘Promise me you won’t try to die,’ I said. ‘Ever.’
‘Promise me you won’t either,’ he countered.
‘It’s not really something I can control.’

  • Published: 2 January 2018
  • ISBN: 9780143770930
  • Imprint: Penguin
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 320
  • RRP: $22.00

About the author

Eileen Merriman

Eileen Merriman is an award-winning New Zealand author of 14 novels for teen and adult audiences. Her intense and boundary-pushing books range from slow-burn thriller to dystopian science fiction to gripping medical drama, and have been variously published in the UK, Germany and Turkey as well as optioned for film and television.

Her debut YA novel, Pieces of You, was published in 2017 to much critical praise. The NZ Herald described it as ‘so compulsively readable it's hard to believe this is [Merriman’s] first published novel’ and poet and reviewer Paula Green wrote that it was ‘the kind of book you want to read in one sitting because it is so breathtakingly good…that will stay at the front of my mind all week and longer’. It was awarded a Storylines Notable Young Adult Book award and was a finalist in the Young Adult Fiction category of the New Zealand Book Awards for Children and Young Adults.

Nine more novels for young adults followed in quick succession, ranging from contemporary realism to a science fiction trilogy and a spinoff series, and these cemented Merriman as ‘an author to watch out for’. They featured in the Storylines Notable YA Books lists and Merriman was a regular finalist in the young adult fiction category of the New Zealand Book Awards for Children and Young Adults. A Trio of Sophies was also a finalist in the teen category of the Ngaio Marsh Awards for crime fiction in 2021.

In 2024, after several shortlistings, Merriman’s Catch a Falling Star won the New Zealand Book Awards Young Adult Fiction Award and NZ Booklovers Best Young Adult Book. A standalone novel exploring the backstory of a character from Catch Me When You Fall (2018), depicting the 15-year-old’s rapid spiral into a mental health crisis, the judges praised it as a ‘remarkably authentic portrayal…superbly written and frenetically paced’.

Merriman’s four works for adult audiences are populated with university students and young professionals and have been described as straddling a ‘new adult’ audience. Moonlight Sonata (2019), a deft exploration of a taboo relationship and intergenerational legacy, was longlisted for the Jann Medlicott Acorn Prize for Fiction 2020. Literary journal Landfall noted the author’s ‘gift for character drawing and, even more, for landscape painting. What seems “utterly real” is, of course, a very clever web of fabrication that draws us into conundrums we might never have been asked to contemplate’. The Weekend Herald praised Merriman’s skilful crafting and propulsive narrative – so much so that ‘only the most disciplined of readers will put the book down and turn the light off at a sensible time of night.’

For the Silence of Snow (2020), Merriman drew on her extensive medical background (she works as a consultant haematologist at Auckland’s North Shore Hospital) to write an ethical drama about addiction in the medical world. ‘Merriman is an instinctive storyteller with an innate sense of timing’ wrote Nicky Pelligrino for Newsroom. ‘There's a misconception that if a novel is easy to read then it must have been easy to write. If anything the opposite is true…paring a story to the essentials – an engaging plot, authentic characters, a world that comes alive – takes real craft.’ The Spinoff’s Catherine Woulfe declared that she ‘could pick Eileen Merriman’s writing anywhere…a particular minor key that rings across each page, clear and sharp and quick’.

Her third novel for adults, Double Helix, was hailed by Newsroom’s Steve Braunias as ‘one of the 10 best novels of 2021…a love story and a tearjerker and a blazingly topical examination into assisted dying’, while The Night She Fell (2024) was a return to psychological suspense – ‘Everyone is talking about this book’ said Pip Adam in RNZ’s Book Critic and Patricia Bell wrote, ‘I literally couldn’t put the book down…a big tick for Merriman from me. She joins the high-calibre group of established and emerging crime and thriller writers in Aotearoa.’

Merriman lives in Auckland with her school-aged children and husband.

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Praise for Catch Me When You Fall

My best pick for 2018 for young adults, the standout for me was Catch Me When You Fall . . . it's kind of heart-wrenching and really real and quirky and a great teen read for girls and boys.

James Russell, Radio NZ

This book, like Merriman's first, Pieces of You, is interested in life and death struggles, and the way that these struggles interact with the more everyday agonies and ecstasies of coming-of-age. . . Alex is engaging and likeable, a recognisable teen . . . The story is well-paced and absorbing . . . Her love story with Jamie is endearing . . . the story is effective in its depiction of the desperation inspired by love and fear of loss.

Angelina Sbroma, NZ Books

The beauty of it is that Merriman just seems to be able to cut straight to the intensity of a relationship, or a first relationship - the anguish, drama, the second guessing and the doubt, and the pure electricity of those first physical encounters . . . the characters are genuine and believable and wonderful dialogue and I must admit a few tears squeezed from my eyes while I was reading. It really is a great book . . . very similar to that John Green novel, The Fault in our Stars, very similar in subject matter and I would actually put it right up there. It is a fantastic book.

James Russell, Radio NZ

I learnt more about leukemia from this novel than I could have from a medical journal. This is the power of fiction. Personalising this condition has for the want of better words given leukemia life. Very well written and structured and will appeal to all those that like The Fault in our Stars by John Green and similar novels. Give yourself plenty of space when reading this novel, it is powerful.

bobsbooksnz

This very readable novel is set in Christchurch post-earthquake which makes it instantly appealing to me. Merriman has created dynamic, believable characters who are faced with the harsh realities of medical issues largely outside their control. The joy and tenderness between Alex and Jamie is a real joy. There are some beautiful and horrific scenes where the full weight of the thinness of the space between life and death are explored. A book to be emotionally involved with this summer.

createhopeinspire.blogspot

WHAT DID I LIKE 1. how darn cute this novel was, it really swept you up 2. how fast paced it was, it made it so much easier to read 3. how real it felt, it felt like this was really happening due to the fact that alot of terminology was included and it made you feel like you were there in the hospital with them 4. How decently the Bi polar disorder & the depression were dealt with. WHAT I DIDN’T LIKE 1. How instalovey it was. personally i dont like insta love, but I don’t hate it so, yeah. All in all this was a cute book that I’m really glad I read.

weavinglife.wordpress blog

When it comes to the medical details, the story pays impressive attention . . . the story doesn't only focus on Alex and her physical sickness but also on Jamie and his far subtler mental illness. His ever-creeping mania and attitude toward constant medication are well written and cleverly expressed.

Madeleine Fountain, NZ Doctor

heartwrenching tale

Diane McCarthy, Eastern Bay Life

Awards & recognition

New Zealand Book Awards for Children and Young Adults

Shortlisted  •  2018  •  NZ Awards for Children and Young Adults

Storylines Notable Book Award

Awarded  •  2019  •  Notable Book

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